M y mom had a stroke early Saturday. The prognosis is uncertain. She has received excellent care at Brookwood Hospital, but the unknown is greater than the known. The neurologist has been realistic, but encouraging. What the future holds, is in Godâ€™s hands.
Sitting in the ICU waiting room, the mind wanders. The thoughts of how I shouldnâ€™t have talked my mom into a healthier desert instead of the cheesecake she wanted on Friday night, and how I shouldâ€™ve done more to help her with some task over the years, run through my head.
One thought kept running through my head all day Saturday and Sunday: When I am weak, then am I strong.
It seems like a contradiction; but so much of life is.
But how can that be true?
It came into focus as the doctors streamed in and out of the room.
Iâ€™m not a doctor; however, I need a doctorâ€™s knowledge and experience.
I have a deficiency of knowledge, a weakness. If Iâ€™m willing to admit it, then I am made strongerâ€”it gives a loved one a chance at life.
Of course, we all can admit that weakness. We want to live. But it is the same with the acquisition of any type of knowledge. Unless we are willing to listen to others, we canâ€™t gain wisdom.
When we are strong (or at least think we are), we do more talking than listening. I canâ€™t think of much Iâ€™ve learned while talking, but the knowledge gained while listening would be substantial.
I canâ€™t say that Iâ€™m as willing as the Apostle who also said, â€œI take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches…â€ But we wouldnâ€™t know ourselvesâ€”our humanityâ€”without moments of weakness. We wouldnâ€™t know our limitations, and our need to know the Infinite.
Maybe spending more time in prayer, and less time reading sports news over the last few days will do me some good.
Oh well, this started out as a short note and Iâ€™ve prattled on longer than intended. Thatâ€™s the danger of a blog. You start writing, and suddenly what you have writtenâ€”isnâ€™t short.
I just wanted readers to know they can expect regular (but slower) news updates in the coming days, probably with less sarcasm. Iâ€™ll also get our columnists items posted, but that schedule will be a little slower too.